i need to start over. 

pause.

rewind.

play.

too bad its the digital age and rewinding happens too quickly.

all you can do now is let it play. 

it's funny seeing the result of pushing people away.

i understand my parents now but less as their first child and more 

like a student. done through interview and past mistakes with them.

my sister picked up my bad habits growing up. 

my brother is in his own world.

friends of before lived a life that will get them somewhere in the future.

will they happy? who knows they took the right path for success so i guess thats all that matters.

my last day of 2008 and i spent it crying because i tried holding up a facade that fell once my mom made me feel like i'm not doing anything helpful.

i'm really going to try hard this year. 

i don't want to disappoint anyone anymore.

god please.