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Not sure if it's just me.

But have you ever felt like something was missing in your life.

You have everything you can ask for but there's something

like my heart is there but there's one spot where some crack is growing.

I'm missing the adhesive to glue it back together.

I lost my passion.

The thing to wake up to in the morning.

It can't be Nick I don't want to have him be my everything.

I don't want to be clingy. As much as I care for him I don't want to bother him day in and day out with my weird "i wish..." moments. He has his friends. His own life. I don't want to be a pain to him.

It really is something I'm missing on my own.

I wish I had someone to guide me through it all.

Like bring me from one adventure to another.

Just so I can find myself.

Like a muse or something.

Yeah fml.

I can't even get out of bed.

i lie in an early bed

thinking late thoughts

waiting for the black to replace my blue

i do not struggle in your web

because it was my aim to get caught

but daddy long legs i feel

that i'm finally growing weary

of waiting to be consumed by you.

-the first taste