maybe one day it'll be like how it was.

the feelings that is.

i feel like it wont ever be like that again

kind of like growing out of your favorite shirt

either you got fat, it got too faded, or it just went out of style

your shirt will never feel the same like it did when you first got it.

when you first loved it.

i mean i guess that means its time for a wardrobe change

but still you don't want to let go.

like my analogy with clothing especially around the time of the great spending months.

but my question is?

how do you bring it back?

that old feeling.

still being who you are now but feeling like you did before.

i want to fall in again.

head over heals status.

i think it's cause i heard brown eyed blues.

that song just brought back feelings is all.

i dont even want to hear gabe bondoc.

oh man.

its funny how supposedly our minds store negative valences longer.

but for me.

certain memories i can recreate.

but it's only the good ones.

the ones where i feel my heart suddenly beat faster.

or my cheeks tint a slight shade of red.

ya i get like that sometimes.

i feel like all i can do at this point is sigh and go back to my studying.

happy december 1st everyone.

last month of 2009

i hope 2010 will treat all of us with a bit more loving.