i think im ready.
to do what i want in order to feel more comfortable with myself.
to feel like i am attractive and smart.
it's a little different
and it may cost more money but hey for some reason i feel like it'll help me.

so i'm not gonna lie
it's been awhile since i've been in a mood where i have been laughing out loud, giggling whatever it is i do now. and it is because the company i've been around. it's nice. but that's all i can have. just that type of company to keep me going. i have been thinking what it would be like to have someone to hug for my own again. but then i get mad at myself for wanting that again.
i think it's because in the back of my mind well not that far back in my mind but i still want someone to want me. or just someone to hold hands with at least. to be the reason why someone smiles. to be the last thing he thinks about before going to bed.

ya hopeless romantic.
sounds like high school me all over again.

you want what you can't have right?
it's time for me to become that girl that a guy can't have.
that he'll want to have but i won't give unless i feel like he's worth my time.

it's just hard when lately i've been so impatient.

k i'm gonna go to sleep now.
work in a few hours.

i wish i had someone to say goodnight to.
goodnight everybody sleep tight
it's a new day once you wake up :)