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I love feeling like I belong, even though I have a tendency to isolate myself from others. I stick true to the definition of my zodiac sign. And I love the idea of love but I am too scared to be in it. I appreciate when people take an effort to know me, who make me smile without them knowing how much of a reason they give me to really smile.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

doorman

it was the first word i could think of for a title.
well anyways.


i dont know what to do anymore.
he makes me want to give up.
but at the same time, never stop trying.
i know things are different.
i'm different?

his life is going the path he finally deserves.
everything is working for him.
i did what i was supposed to.
help him see that there is more to him than he expects.
i knew things would work out for him.
but i guess at the expense of us...

i'm sorry.
i feel like it's all my fault.
i doubt he'll see this.
i doubt he thinks i care.
he really does deserve better.
im just the little bridge that brought him to that better place.

he can't care for someone like me anymore.
i don't do anything for him now.

destined to be alone.
yup.
that's my future.
i'll be a hermit lady.
i'll help lead people to their threshold.

doorman.

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