whenever it's one and he hasn't called it means he's still at practice.

i feel so bad because before 1am wasn't late but now it means practice went on longer than usual. 

i mean they could all be going out to eat and what not so it 

may not be that bad.

but i know he'd rather being doing the not so busy things again.

i passed out and took a nap at 1030.

Woke up just now to get ready for bed.

I feel bad being so lazy nowadays when people are working so hard to be somebody. 

I got an email to return the camera to work before 9am.

That's early.

But I guess I'll do it. And stay on campus to study before my 1230. 

It's early, but I lost my discipline. I don't even know the last time I worked out. 

Fuck.

I need to straighten myself out.

Right now the image in my mind is my shadow pushing me to start. 

Self motivation is all I can do at this point. 

appreciate what i have and what i have the potential to do. 

i will act as if i do make a difference

-william james