we had dinner yesterday and it was so nice having things feel normal for just those few hours. i didn't cry when i saw him or fall apart or other forms of melodrama.
i just saw him (he came out of his car) and we hugged.
it was a kind of hug i missed.

i gave him a pussy pop.
the same kind that i gave him last year around this time.

fast forward to when we got to my apartment.
he wants to take it "slow"
i mean as slow as we can take it for ppl who've been together for almost a year.
it's nice though
i woke up this morning with the sun actually waking me up.
it felt new.

ironically we just want to in a way date.
he wants a relationship-relationship
whereas before i was ready for a relationship-relationship-relationship.
confusing right?
it's okay it made sense to us.

i don't know what this means for us but hey at least it's somewhere.

he asked me to be his valentine.
so part two of the nick and casey movie?

now all that's missing is chocolate covered gummy bears.