how exciting my first blog via my android.

now i know how to vent faster

as long as my battery life isnt stupid.

so yea im lonely

im craving conversation

like a deep one.

k confession time

its not like people know about this blog anyway

well to the point to check for updates

but yes ready for it...

i dont think i can live with couples anymore.

there i said it.

gah.

relief.

maybe since im bitter

or i appreciate independent behavior

but living with couples i cant.

one it reminds me im single

two i feel like its hard to be someone in their life when its significant other twenty four seven.

i feel small here

like im not allowed to do anything because it might upset whatever the atmosphere is here

im not asking for parties

im asking for can i come home and feel like its a home for me too

fuck im fucking lonely haha

k confession number two which goes with one

this is why im never home

im that uncomfortable in my own house.

theres no room for me.

look downstairs

where is there something that shows i even live here

oh nvm my name on the board.

i just feel surrounded by dogs and couples.

im not saying its my roomies fault

im just realizing this lifestyle im surrounding myself in

its not for me

i want friends.

i want us to feel like a family and not me as the child with two sets of parents

but like college kids enjoying living with each other

living life for them.

them as in just that individual.

not their boyfriend or girlfriend.

i get inspired by those who live their life for themselves.

who find passion in their own discoveries,

their own mistakes and decisions.

those who understand life only happens once.

and its better to live life knowing you lived it.

love i know is there for everyone at some point in their life

but im not ready to live with those who feel they are already quote settled.

im not ready to be settled.

im ready to make mistakes.

to learn who i can be.

to be with people who also aspire for that same goal.

i feel bad making this post.

i honestly do.

but i dont have the balls to say anything to them.

i just keep quiet.

and hope i can let it pass.

next year who knows where and who ill live with.

maybe i should just live alone.