missing it.

those moments of feeling giddy.
the embarrassing public displays of affection that isn't too much.
i miss the looks,
giving the gawd you make me so happy my heart hurts look -
the floaty balloon feeling.

when people notice the faint smile on my lips
and say we know who you're thinking of.

not gonna lie i was in a phase of fuck it i'll just make out with whoever because
hormones are intense
but now.
i miss having that person to talk to.
i miss having someone to hug.
it's been forever since i've had a real hug.

and then the hug where you step back but look into each others eyes and ya...

i blame robin thicke and his song just right.
forget that bruno mars song..
if a guy sang/performed that song to me and i knew his feelings were legit and it was returned
just for him...

i miss feeling i guess loved.
loved like that.
not family love
not friend love
but the love that i dont even kno if it's real love.
that feeling.

i'm starting to yearn for it again.
which is horrible timing.

i was told i look intimidating like bitch status.
and that maybe if i smiled more i wouldn't look that way.

i lost my reason to smile.
i hope i find one soon.