so here's the deal.

i'm being a brat and refuse to move back home on account of sanity reasons.
i know it wills save my parents money and myself.
but i can't.
one day with my family is already stressing me out.
i feel myself looking like shit as a result of feeling like shit.

wait. relax. reduce the use of curse words. okay proceed.

so, yes.
my plan is to find a general area to live.
perhaps wander around there.
see what's in the general area.
then proceed to find a part time job.
may it be at a restaraunt, a bookstore, or even some office job.

i think i'll do that for my summer.
part time job it up as i finish up my summer session at uci.
i'm pretty sure i'm getting pushed back a quarter due to physics so reality must come into the picture and i have to factor that in.

outline:
june-july session one of summer school. two sociology classes and one physics course.
july-august session two of summer school. physics course.
august-sept ucla emt program.

that is what i am planning around.
in between all these dates i must find a way to pay off the future apartment i plan to get with jen in LA area. i'm assuming it'll be around noho area maybe burbank.
so maybe i'll actually start looking for a job during summer session two.
guess i'll be doing a lot of commuting.

all this because i can't stand living at home.
too lonely here.
even with siblings.
it'll be too lonely.
god give me strength to be able to handle this.
that the reason i'm fighting for this is for an actual cause.
teach me independence.
so that i can pay off my rent on my own. to pay for utilities alone. to be able to spend on myself and others on my own.

dammit.
being an adult sucks.