it smells bad here!

i don't know why i like to blog while in 100Lw...

probably because i don't pay attention anyways.

it's week 9.

spring quarter is almost over.

i have a lab report due thursday and i haven't started. 

gahh im scared

i'm almost a junior in college now.

dang.

i remember writing in my lj about being a junior in high school.

time really has a different relativism when you age.

i talked to a patient at Hoag and she told me time really does fly the older you get.

That's because when we're younger we don't have enough memory to relate to.

The older we are the more time flies because we have more memories.

It's crazy looking back at the life I lived.

The good, the bad and the ugly.

I say I still have the mindset of a seventeen year old but at the same time I feel as exhausted as the age I am now. I met people who I can't imagine my life without, and some I wish you fuck themselves. Well that's too harsh. It's just some people I would probably be better off not meeting so I wouldn't be so bitter, but it's experiences that help me grow and learn. 

Sometimes seeing people in my past makes me reminiscent, but at the same time I'd rather not dwell on it. I want to move forward but sometimes I feel like I'm getting held back. I can't deny they made me who I am today, but then I need time for the people who are in my now. I didn't think it would turn out this way seeing certain people still. 

I wish I had a job. 

I would like to have money. 

People behind me need to stop talking loud.

Imma throw my blended chocolate drink at them.

and laugh.

I would like money to save up for a camera. Or a new laptop. or just to have money to have money and not depend on my parents. Plus in a year I have to start paying off my loans. STUPID GIRLS SHUT UP anyways people give me torrettes. 

Anyways I should get back to wandering online. Hi Nick Vuu.