i keep getting bug bites on my face. not sure how. i don't feel anything landing on me.

Maybe I'm just hallucinating
Cause my loneliness got the best of me
And my heart's so weak

the irony of pandora radio.
i look at t the time and it's 1122.
songs that play remind me.
i think that's why i cried.
i tried ignoring it but i see it.
when he was there..when he was the first person i locked eyes with when i walked in...
i wanted to hug him so hard.
run into his arms

if they were open like i wish they were.

i think he wasn't prepared to see me either.
for us to not mentally or emotionally prepare ourselves for each other.
he left without saying goodbye.
that sucks.
maybe that's why i cried.

i was so busy this week i forgot about him. temporarily.
i was too exhausted to think.
to care.
but i had time. that whole night i had the time to think and cry.
sadly in front of other people.
looking pathetic in the eyes of others.

i promise i'm strong.
just not when it comes to the heart.
not yet.

i need to fold my clothes now.
get ready for class.
and stay on campus all day to study.

“We grow neither better nor worse as we get old, but more like ourselves”

-May Lamberton Becker